Hello! :)
Sorry I haven't been posting as of recently as I've been busy. I never got round to doing my Halloween make up tutorial as my costume didn't come till the day after, which was very annoying but at the same time I did have a good Halloween and a good bonfire night as well. :)
As most of my friends and family know about this that I have been looking for part time work over the past year without much luck, But today I have been offered by my work solutions person some full time apprenticeship work in an office not so far from me. However it makes me feel scared to go back into full time straight away, as I had problems in the past that I'm not going to mention on here for a reason, involving full time work. I have been doing volunteering work for part time for quite some time now and although I do enjoy it so much I need to move up in life so I can start living. I don't want to be stuck like this forever. When I was younger and sill at college I have always wanted to be an artist and it was my dream since I was a kid but the sad thing is that jobs like those are getting a lot more harder to get into. I haven't really done much art and craft work in a very long time and I felt if that if I can work hard at it I'll be there where I want to be, and then there are always desertions that comes with it and I don't do it which frustrates me because my head is just not into it anymore. So I've been working out what else I can do as full time work, but I don't have an experiences nor do I have the qualifications for that kind of job and when I do look up jobs that I want to do and then I have a look in the description at the bottom of it and then I thought to myself, "I can't do that" :(
But then I think to myself "well maybe I can do it, I need some work experience in that placement." and I have been doing that and to be honest I'm not doing to bad. I just need to face my fears and move on. I'm pretty sure I'm not the only person feeling like this at the moment as there are many people out there who are facing the same problems as I am. Sometimes I do feel like I want to give up some days but I have friends and family telling me that I can't give up, and I won't give up. My heads telling me its time to take back control of my life and my heart is telling me to hold back a wail. Its now or never I think. I know this post is a little personal as I did say that I didn't want to go into to much detail. Hope you guys understand where I'm coming from.
I will be doing some more stuff in the meantime for this blog But for now I just wanted to type this so I can reach out to people. Althogh I have only just talk to my boyfriend and my dad about this tonight. What would you do in this situation? Sould you just go for something just because its the first thing that comes up? Or would you rather think about it? Thats Jobs I'm talking about. Anyway I'm going to rap this up before it goes on and on.
Hope your days are going well. :)
Sorry I haven't been posting as of recently as I've been busy. I never got round to doing my Halloween make up tutorial as my costume didn't come till the day after, which was very annoying but at the same time I did have a good Halloween and a good bonfire night as well. :)
As most of my friends and family know about this that I have been looking for part time work over the past year without much luck, But today I have been offered by my work solutions person some full time apprenticeship work in an office not so far from me. However it makes me feel scared to go back into full time straight away, as I had problems in the past that I'm not going to mention on here for a reason, involving full time work. I have been doing volunteering work for part time for quite some time now and although I do enjoy it so much I need to move up in life so I can start living. I don't want to be stuck like this forever. When I was younger and sill at college I have always wanted to be an artist and it was my dream since I was a kid but the sad thing is that jobs like those are getting a lot more harder to get into. I haven't really done much art and craft work in a very long time and I felt if that if I can work hard at it I'll be there where I want to be, and then there are always desertions that comes with it and I don't do it which frustrates me because my head is just not into it anymore. So I've been working out what else I can do as full time work, but I don't have an experiences nor do I have the qualifications for that kind of job and when I do look up jobs that I want to do and then I have a look in the description at the bottom of it and then I thought to myself, "I can't do that" :(
But then I think to myself "well maybe I can do it, I need some work experience in that placement." and I have been doing that and to be honest I'm not doing to bad. I just need to face my fears and move on. I'm pretty sure I'm not the only person feeling like this at the moment as there are many people out there who are facing the same problems as I am. Sometimes I do feel like I want to give up some days but I have friends and family telling me that I can't give up, and I won't give up. My heads telling me its time to take back control of my life and my heart is telling me to hold back a wail. Its now or never I think. I know this post is a little personal as I did say that I didn't want to go into to much detail. Hope you guys understand where I'm coming from.
I will be doing some more stuff in the meantime for this blog But for now I just wanted to type this so I can reach out to people. Althogh I have only just talk to my boyfriend and my dad about this tonight. What would you do in this situation? Sould you just go for something just because its the first thing that comes up? Or would you rather think about it? Thats Jobs I'm talking about. Anyway I'm going to rap this up before it goes on and on.
Hope your days are going well. :)
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